I have a few friends who believe they are psychic. One in particular, a very wise woman, is also adept at palmistry and interested in tarot. Personally I'm not convinced by the whole thing. I'd like to believe that those who have passed on are watching over us especially since I believe they'd be proud of what I've become. However I suspect that it's more of a "want to believe because it makes it all worthwhile" rather than any rational understanding.
If it is all true then I will get married, have 2 kids (1 of each), live a long healthy life and become rich due to work rather than winning money. Of course if this is true they I'm going to have to get the proverbial finger out because I'm 'getting on a bit' apparently. That sentence is guaranteed to frighten off 99% of the women I'm likely to meet over the next year. The flip side of that argument is that if it's meant to happen then there's no sense in worrying about.
All joking aside there have been a few more 'getting closer to 40' comments over the past year and as much as I laugh them off they've obviously been niggling away at me. I've been contemplating this and my continuing single status while out on long walks or runs recently and starting to (over) analyse the situation. I can't contemplate where Ms Right is going to appear from or where/how I'm going to meet them. That said I'm pretty sure this has been true before the last few relationships. Would you expect to end up dating the person who made you drive a pink car? Would you assume that the long lost friend that you find again online on a night you're ill and watching the Eurovision will become the person you'll enjoy the next 11 months with?
One of the thoughts that runs through my head is what if I already met the person I was meant to be with and either never took my opportunity or worse, let them go? You can't get hung up on 'what if' but it's always worth contemplating because I think you learn nuggets about yourself in the process.
The only conclusions I've come to are that I'll not find the person I'm meant to be with sitting at home and I'll not find them by looking. The one consistent theme running through all my previous relationships is that they've happened at times that I've felt comfortable with who I am. And given that, I must be due to meet someone pretty soon.
